[3rd - 17th Bloomingtide, 9.35 - inclusive; with Velanna - after the events of this thread]
4th Bloomingtide
Considering the persistent rumours surrounding the proclivities of the second-to-last Arl of Amaranthine, it was some small relief to Henri-Julien that his imprisonment within the dungeon of Vigil's Keep amounted to nothing more than an extended spell in a dank cell. Of course, the real punishment did not lie in his unpleasant surroundings, but in the persistent swirling thoughts from which he had no means of distraction.
Or, that was what he presumed should have been his punishment. Except Henri-Julien found that his being stripped of his seniority... did not really matter so much. Not anymore. Perhaps before his travels across Ferelden with Velanna, it would have hit much harder. A devastating blow, even. Yes, he could well imagine that: raging and railing into the gloom, mocked by the impotency of his words ringing against the iron bars of his cell. He cringed a little to even think of it.
But now? He had not sought out his Archdemon for nothing. Even though he had yet to find and slay it, he had journeyed far enough towards it to realise that all the value he had placed on his authority - as a Knight-Tracker, as a Senior Grey Warden - had been false. A means of seeking security against the troublesome thoughts which he now understood had always plagued him. Perhaps not loudly and perhaps not unwillingly. Yet how else to explain his absolute devotion to the Chantry? It was a means by which to avoid having to confront the difficult questions that he himself was at a loss to answer.
And if that were not reason enough: he was a former Templar who knowingly, willingly and repeatedly fraternised with a Danish apostate. If, even after literal decades of service to the Templar Order, he could fall so spectacularly from the Chantry's teachings (though not the Chant of Light - to that, he remained devoted), then it was probably for the best that after only a handful of years, he had taken from him the seniority which he should never have been granted.
What did agitate him was to wonder how Velanna had been punished. He had been apprehended as soon as he had returned to Vigil's Keep. It was only when he had been escorted into the dungeon that Commander Berlra had arrived to make his decree. Of Callum and Daniel, he had no idea. But it was Velanna that mattered to him. After all, while he did not wish ill on Callum, he had no personal reason to care about the fate of the other man. As for Daniel, the further he was from the man, the better. But Velanna had only been dragged into the whole mess because of Henri-Julien. She did not deserve punishment as he, Callum and Daniel did.
That was probably another factor in his newly discovered sense of inner peace. The young boy had been escorted safely to the Circle. For a Knight-Tracker, that was the most successful conclusion he could hope to achieve. If something untoward had happened, then Henri-Julien might have succumbed to endlessly wondering 'what if', but the fact of the matter was that he had done exactly as he had promised to do. The emotional fallout was never his burden to bear: that was reserved for Callum and his family.
Not that Henri-Julien was immune from all emotions. The sting of Velanna's absence was something which no balm could soothe. He had grown accustomed to having her nearby, even when their interactions were hampered by the presence of others, and he sorely longed for even a glimpse of her. Once or twice, he had caught himself idly tracing the lines of her vallaslin in the dirt floor of the cell, the pattern as clearly imprinted on his mind as each verse of the Chant.
Sighing, Henri-Julien pushed himself onto his feet to begin working through his forms, focusing on the fluidity of his movements. He had no weapon but that was not the point. It was important to keep the body moving just as it was important to engage the mind. He found his voice as his body loosened, his tenor filling the dungeon. His goal was to perform today's chosen Chant Verse flawlessly while maintaining the accuracy of his forms. He had already discovered that it was sufficiently challenging to tire him out. Then he would sleep and repeat the process again.
4th Bloomingtide
Considering the persistent rumours surrounding the proclivities of the second-to-last Arl of Amaranthine, it was some small relief to Henri-Julien that his imprisonment within the dungeon of Vigil's Keep amounted to nothing more than an extended spell in a dank cell. Of course, the real punishment did not lie in his unpleasant surroundings, but in the persistent swirling thoughts from which he had no means of distraction.
Or, that was what he presumed should have been his punishment. Except Henri-Julien found that his being stripped of his seniority... did not really matter so much. Not anymore. Perhaps before his travels across Ferelden with Velanna, it would have hit much harder. A devastating blow, even. Yes, he could well imagine that: raging and railing into the gloom, mocked by the impotency of his words ringing against the iron bars of his cell. He cringed a little to even think of it.
But now? He had not sought out his Archdemon for nothing. Even though he had yet to find and slay it, he had journeyed far enough towards it to realise that all the value he had placed on his authority - as a Knight-Tracker, as a Senior Grey Warden - had been false. A means of seeking security against the troublesome thoughts which he now understood had always plagued him. Perhaps not loudly and perhaps not unwillingly. Yet how else to explain his absolute devotion to the Chantry? It was a means by which to avoid having to confront the difficult questions that he himself was at a loss to answer.
And if that were not reason enough: he was a former Templar who knowingly, willingly and repeatedly fraternised with a Danish apostate. If, even after literal decades of service to the Templar Order, he could fall so spectacularly from the Chantry's teachings (though not the Chant of Light - to that, he remained devoted), then it was probably for the best that after only a handful of years, he had taken from him the seniority which he should never have been granted.
What did agitate him was to wonder how Velanna had been punished. He had been apprehended as soon as he had returned to Vigil's Keep. It was only when he had been escorted into the dungeon that Commander Berlra had arrived to make his decree. Of Callum and Daniel, he had no idea. But it was Velanna that mattered to him. After all, while he did not wish ill on Callum, he had no personal reason to care about the fate of the other man. As for Daniel, the further he was from the man, the better. But Velanna had only been dragged into the whole mess because of Henri-Julien. She did not deserve punishment as he, Callum and Daniel did.
That was probably another factor in his newly discovered sense of inner peace. The young boy had been escorted safely to the Circle. For a Knight-Tracker, that was the most successful conclusion he could hope to achieve. If something untoward had happened, then Henri-Julien might have succumbed to endlessly wondering 'what if', but the fact of the matter was that he had done exactly as he had promised to do. The emotional fallout was never his burden to bear: that was reserved for Callum and his family.
Not that Henri-Julien was immune from all emotions. The sting of Velanna's absence was something which no balm could soothe. He had grown accustomed to having her nearby, even when their interactions were hampered by the presence of others, and he sorely longed for even a glimpse of her. Once or twice, he had caught himself idly tracing the lines of her vallaslin in the dirt floor of the cell, the pattern as clearly imprinted on his mind as each verse of the Chant.
Sighing, Henri-Julien pushed himself onto his feet to begin working through his forms, focusing on the fluidity of his movements. He had no weapon but that was not the point. It was important to keep the body moving just as it was important to engage the mind. He found his voice as his body loosened, his tenor filling the dungeon. His goal was to perform today's chosen Chant Verse flawlessly while maintaining the accuracy of his forms. He had already discovered that it was sufficiently challenging to tire him out. Then he would sleep and repeat the process again.